Have any of you matured too fast? I have. I have not been like a normal teenager at all. All the teens I know (well except for certain ones) have snuck out, ditched, gone to parties (both types with and without alcohol) and I have just now began being able to go to friends for a little while. I'm told I need to start acting more my age and then I get told I can't go do stuff with friends or G. My friend Em asks if I want to go do something and I don't ask because I know it will be a no on my side. And sometimes I'll ask a week or so ahead of time and then when I ask again we suddenly have big "chores" or "projects" to do or we suddenly have stuff planned even though I've been making plans, that are known about, for a week or so. I'm getting kind of tired of it. But the worst thing about it? I don't even feel comfortable enough with my parents to bring that up. THEY are the ones that said I needed to act like a teenager. THEY are actually very lucky I'm not like many of the teenage girls at my school walking around pregnant, drunk, high, ditching, or sneaking out late to have sex. I have proven again and again that I am more trust worthy than many of my classmates (I live in Casper, one of the cities with the biggest drug problems in Wyoming).
The people I actually befriend, except a couple of ex's which I learned from, are also trust worthy people. Em is kind of a prude and she is very responsible. G is responsable and for a teenage boy he has AOLT of restraint (compared to others I know and I mean 6 months of dating and we haven't made out that takes a lot compared to some guys I know). S, even though she no longer lives here, is fairly responsable and only had a couple of problems. Kate (Japanese classmate [as in we took Japanese together]) is responsable, has a job and everything. And I have gone to I think 3 or so parties at my friends. I finally got to go to club activities but no it is a pain for people to get me home so I can't go anymore (or that's the reason my mom gives and I apparently can't wait for half an hour or so to have G take me home according to them). And I can never leave my house for more than 4 hours and even that is a rarity.
I get so overwhelmed that I just want to escape my house for a few hours and be with friends, G, or by myself and I don't get that. Bub gets to go to the park whenever she likes and I can barely leave the house for a walk once in a while. And that really sucks because my mom has hip problems and I want to prevent stuff like that from happening to me by exercising like my dad suggested.
Well I guess that's all I can say other than I'm sorry mom but that is truly how I feel. I wish I could bring it up in person but ever since you started writing your book and my grandparents started making accusations you have kinda turned into what they have said. I'm just glad they were wrong about one point. No matter how you cat you never lash out at us and for that I am very grateful. Not everyone gets that chance now a days. And I really miss the days where we could talk about everything with out you throwing accusations or insults at what/who I want to talk about.
Please, other mom's who are reading this don't treat your kids like that, and teens or other kids reading this please talk to your parents it is so much safer than not in many cases.
